Thanks Submaniac, id really like to make some new friends. Everyone here has been so helpful so far
Krupnik -
Oh no i totally get what youre saying, and id like to think im not foolish enough to put all my eggs in one basket. I wouldnt cut off all ties at home and leave myself without options, i know you always need to try and cover your back. And im not naive enough to just assume it'll all work out rainbows and happiness, without a care in the world... lets face it – life’s life, wherever you are!
Like you said though... im here, in the UK, feeling like, well, im wasting my life and thinking ''there must be more than this?!''.
This country depresses me, it really does! In a few aspects i can tell you!
Sadly ive looked further into this (part-time) degree and it seems i got it wrong
It would take me 6 years to get the degree and not 4 as i previously thought. This has really upset me as now im not quite sure what to do!
Its not the hard work that puts me off at all, but I’m 25 now and having to think about things realistically. I have to look at what i want from life...
What i want IS to achieve this goal for myself, and to follow my dream and my heart to Thailand in a sensible/safe way which will allow me to support myself and not worry about being thrown out of the country at a seconds notice (working illegally).
But... what i also want from life and what ive always seen as important is to have a family. I’ve always seen myself with 3 maybe 4 kids (i kno you can never plan these things - i may end up with none!) But if i were to start this degree and THEN do a CELTA and only really THEN begin on my adventure i would be at least 32 before i even started to set up somewhere new.
I’m worried that if i follow my heart with this i might not get the time to meet someone and have a family until im too old!? I know 32 isnt old but in terms of not even having started teaching then... I’m not adverse to Thai men btw, theyre so cute – (that’s neither here nor there) but it still takes time to find someone you love/trust.
It’s not that I’m not committed to this idea, but it is SUCH a big commitment in terms for time and money that now im worrying that whatever i choose i’ll be closing off the other 'door'
Sorry for the rant! x