I lost my 18 year old son through an accident. Completely different situation.
But my grief was massive. I missed him very much as we were just starting to form a good relationship,
The accident would not have happened if I had not made a last minute decision to stay home instead of going to Vancouver with him.
To me it seems that all the striving to fight city hall is just another way to hang on to the grief.
Every persons feelings are different. For my self it took around three years for the pain to pass at seven years i was telling a friend about an incident that happened when he first started work with the company I was working for. As I was recalling it the tears started to come to my eyes.
I can not imagine keeping in my mind on the conscious level for five years. It is a hard thing to do but there comes a time when we have to get on with are own life and accept the loss of another hard as it may be.
I feel for his loss and for him. It is a formidable task to get over the grief.